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February 8, 2009

struggling

Filed under: baby, carmen, friends, me, mess of the day — Jana @ 8:28 pm

Since I had my girls weekend last week, Lee decided he needed a guys weekend as well, and since his cousin (that he hardly ever gets to see because he is a military doctor) invited him to Mesquite to get some good hookups for golf… he jumped at the chance. Unfortunate timing, I would say, since I am in my last month of pregnancy and this baby is already so huge… but I let him go, none the less.
He is still there, and I haven’t had any signs of labor so far… so that is good. And Lauren’s husband was out of town too, so she came to stay with me just in case I did go into labor, I wouldn’t be alone. We got baby sitters both nights and went out to dinner and movies, which was really nice because I don’t know the next time I will get to do that for a while.
On the flip side, I seem to have lost my mind yesterday because I cant seem to go two seconds without getting hurt. Last night before we left, I was chasing my dear sweet 2 year old who refused to listen to me, down the stairs and slipped, landing right on my back and falling down a few steps. Luckily I didn’t land on my belly… but I did get pretty bruised up trying to catch myself on the railing (which didn’t work). I was ok enough to still go out, especially because that would be a lot less work sitting in a movie than it would be to chase Carmen around some more.
Then I thought the drama was over until I was rummaging through my purse this morning looking for my keys while walking to the front door to lock it. Unfortunately I was so flustered from trying to get that same dear sweet 2 year old ready for church and loaded in the car, that I forgot to look for the small step leading to our front porch. I then kicked it as hard as I could with an open toed shoe, and being top heavy as it is, went right down… hard. Once again I must have angels looking out for me because I didn’t hit my belly. The brunt of it was on my hand and knee, and when I realized what had happened I was laying on my side with the contents of my purse spilled out next to me.
Lauren was not fortunate to see either of these embarrassing feats of acrobatics, lucky for me, because I’m sure they would have been a sight to behold.
Needless to say, I am not feeling so great now. I feel like I have been in a car accident, which is really just wonderful because being at my huge pregnant state, I was already having a hard time getting around with all my joints aching all the time. Now I feel like I cant even move. I probably shouldn’t, since I cant seem to stay on my feet anyway, but that doesn’t make for such easy parenting.
I took a nap after our super early church ended. Carmen woke up an hour after I fell asleep, which was definitely not long enough of a nap after all that commotion. So I just thought I would put a show on in my room, and let her watch it while I slept a little longer. Not a good idea, since I really was exhausted. When I fell back to sleep it was like I took a sedative, and I had no idea what Carmen was doing. I woke up to see her standing next to my bed with white all over her face, holding a spoon. She said “Ice cream” as she ran back out of my door, but I thought surely she had just gotten a small container of yogurt out of the fridge right?… wrong. I staggered out to open the door to my bedroom to find the entire carton of ice cream sitting on the carpet and her and tiger helping themselves to a Sunday treat. Awesome.
I need Lee back here… I am losing it. And unfortunately as soon as he gets back, he goes right back to work. I don’t know how I am going to make it through the next few weeks.
I went to the doctor on thursday, and she said she will strip my membranes this Friday to see if that will get things moving. If that doesn’t work, I am going to probably be induced the week after that.
I have been so nervous about the actual labor and delivery, I have forgotten to be nervous about having 2 kids to attend to. And after this weekend of such sweet obedience (sarcasm, if you can’t tell) from Carmen, I am in for a real treat. Although I guess the reason I haven’t been stressing about that as much is because I am the type that feels like if I have my physical strength back, I can accomplish anything. It is just making it to that point that worries me, because I literally have no physical strength left anymore, and that just does not work with Carmen. She is way too strong willed, and smart. She knows if she can make it under the table or behind the chaise lounge, I can’t get to her to do anything about her behavior… and she’s right, I can’t. And there is only so much that can be done with threats. I guess you can never really appreciate your health and strength, until it’s gone.
Anyway so yeah, that was my fun, and not so fun weekend.
Sorry about that long post… rant over.

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14 Comments »

  1. oh Jana – hang in there! i feel your pain. and feel for you having to chase around a 2 year old. and for the love- BE CAREFUL. It seriously is scary to even trip at this point. I’m glad Lauren was there to keep an eye out. Too bad she didn’t catch the little ice cream episode though… :)

    Soon we’ll all have cute little babies to show for all of this misery…. right? And if anyone has earned an easy delivery this time – it’s you!

    Comment by Tami — February 8, 2009 @ 10:12 pm

  2. Oh! I’m glad you were able to keep the damage to just your already tired body, how scary is that?

    I am wishing you a very speedy couple of weeks!

    Comment by Eve — February 8, 2009 @ 10:38 pm

  3. Oh my goodness…. I am sorry it was so rough! I am glad that you are ok but please be careful! (That coming from the labor and delivery nurse that I am) Are you going to deliver at the same hospital as last time? Same doctor? I am hoping and praying that the next couple of weeks go by quick for you and that everything is fantastic. We love you Jana and wish the best for you.

    Comment by Bethany — February 8, 2009 @ 11:33 pm

  4. I wish I could be there to help out…although, I might not be able to fit all of the places that Carmen hides either! Feel better and thank goodness you will be having your baby soon. Although, I am scared too…two kids will be crazy!

    Comment by Misty — February 9, 2009 @ 8:24 am

  5. Oh dude, I’m sorry about the exhausting weekend. The last few weeks are always miserable without all the extra aches and pains you’re dealing with. I’ll keep my fingers crossed that Friday’s procedure will kick start things and you can start fully recovering! In the meantime, if you’re up to sewing night tonight you’ll definitely get some hugs from your girls!

    Comment by Chantel — February 9, 2009 @ 10:22 am

  6. Sounds like a much deserved rant. I’m seriously not jealous.

    Shoot…that wasn’t very supportive or positive, was it? I’ll try again.

    Woo WOO only a few more weeks!! May your feet stay planted underneath you where they belong, may the little dude slide right out easy-peasy, and may Carmen forget how to run and hide. So let it be written. So let it be done. Love ya! :)

    Comment by Melinda — February 9, 2009 @ 11:42 am

  7. I bet you have sore muscles that you didn’t even know existed. I slipped down the stairs and onto my butt when I was at the end of my pregnancy with Allison. I was sore in places I never felt before. I think when you fall like that, trying to catch yourself, you tense and jerk every muscle to prevent the fall. We have our jacuzzi set on low for pregnant lady enjoyment so please please come use it and relax a little with some jets! It sounds like the perfect cure.
    I zonked on Sunday too…not cool when the little one lets loose. I can just feel the sense of despair seeing that mess and just wanting to go back to bed. Time to send her over here for some more play dates. —And you get your time again…sewing night and eating your heart out at girls night.

    Comment by Krystal — February 9, 2009 @ 3:25 pm

  8. All my girls at work decided they wanted to talk about ripping when you are having the baby. as my freak out level rises they say “oh its uncommon to rip” and “its not like your baby will run around, it will be sleeping a ton so you’ll just be resting”
    Well, Yeah thats true with the FIRST baby. how the heck do you do it with the others if you have to rest and recoop?

    And not so common to rip? 2 girls our of 5 in the room had babies before and BOTH of them ripped.
    All I gotta say is I DONT CARE if i poop, i just dont wanna tear.
    Good thing mom is coming, huh?

    Comment by Carly — February 9, 2009 @ 4:05 pm

  9. i laughed out load when i got your text the other day… dave was in disbelief. when i read this post i laughed again… sorry. it was sad to see you in pain, but dang that carmen.. no matter how naughty she is she is still just so freakin funny! hiding in all those tight spots, thats a smart girl! may this painful journey end soon!

    Comment by lauren — February 9, 2009 @ 11:46 pm

  10. hey baby…always darkest before the dawn. just do a few hours or a day at a time. you can pull this off. i’m praying for you. luv…pops

    Comment by pops — February 10, 2009 @ 8:49 pm

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  12. I’m sorry Jana. I wish I could help you out. I would take Carmen in a second. Just cause I know how crappy the last couple months of pregnancy are. Hope you get feeling better. Remember to let us know when you have the baby.

    Comment by Linds — February 11, 2009 @ 9:31 am

  13. I am glad he is back. Hopefully you are able to rest your body so it will be ready to deliver that baby.

    Comment by Shannon — February 12, 2009 @ 8:12 am

  14. Ah that joint pain is the worst! I feel like an old lady. With Lucy we used to walk miles and miles everyday hoping it would get things going (it didn’t- she was 8 days late) but this time around I seriously can’t take 2 steps without being in a ton of pain! Hopefully the stripping of the membranes works and your horrible joint pain will go away shortly after you deliver. If your dr. is stripping your membranes that means you’re at least a little dilated right? Lucky! Did you get induced with Carmen?

    Comment by Jeanette — February 12, 2009 @ 9:24 am


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